spring semester is officially over.
i had my last 2 finals yesterday. when we got home, we climbed in bed and played footsy for a bit. we're so silly. J fell asleep soon after. yeah, with his hand up my shirt. i was dead tired but couldn't fall asleep for some reason. i got up and lounged around for a about an hour then went back to bed. i had to wake him up for my daily dose of dick. after that i pretty much slept the rest of the day and into part of the night.

i think i woke up around 9, as J was getting back in bed. i love the way he smells after he's just taken a shower. i bit him for letting me sleep so long and made him run my bubble bath. i thought taking a bath would make it a little easier for me to go back to sleep.
it didn't.

J was still up so he gave me another dose of dick. then he went to sleep. surprise. i watched the new episode of House he DVRed for me. i love that show. i'd do hugh laurie if i was into older men. when it was over, i watched J sleep for a while. he looked so cute. i don't know how the hell he falls asleep so easily. i'm a little jealous.

i stared at the clock for a while. it's funny how slowly time passes when you're actually watching it and so fast when it's the last thing on your mind.

a thunderstorm came through. there was this one roll of thunder that scared the hell out of me. i thought my heart was gonna jump out of my chest it was beating so fast. i guess it woke him up. he grabbed me and pulled me closer to him and whispered "it's okay, baby" in my ear and kissed the back of neck. and this indescribable feeling came over me. when i realized what it was, i couldn't help but cry. he asked me what was wrong and i just told him not to let go.

last night, i felt completely safe for the first time in my life.

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