i'm bored.
slightly annoyed.
i wanted to stay in tonight to watch movies and cuddle with J but he wanted to go out with his friends.
i hate when he asks shit like "do you want me to stay home?"
that dumbass knows the answer but he also knows i'm not gonna ask him to stay when i know he doesn't want to.

i'm just gonna make him feel like shit for leaving me home alone when he gets back.
i'll probably cry and call him some names.
it's always fun.
cause then he'll do everything he can think of to keep me from going to bed mad at him and we have angry makeup sex.

i love that he and i have literally and figuratively grown up together.
it's enabled us to share this great emotional connection as well as a strong physical/sexual attraction to each other.
however, it's far from easy maintaining both - not catering to the needs of one part while completely ignoring the other.
you can't have one and not the other and expect to have a fully functional relationship.

maybe that's why i'm always so damn tired.
this love thing wears me out.

Labels: my love, this is who i am

--i refused to spellcheck @ 11:45 PM | |