1. i like doing these things for some strange reason.
2. i'm a girl.
3. i have a cooter.
4. i play with it everyday.
5. i'd probably be a chronic masturbator if i wasn't having sex at least twice a day.
6. i say 'fuck' a lot
7. i don't really care what people think about me.
8. i say what everyone else is thinking, but are scared to say.
9. i like that about me.
10. i do, however, dislike myself more than i like myself.
11. i am my own worst enemy.
12. i'm self-destructive.
13. i care more about my significant other's happiness than my own.
14. i've been a very unhealthy, unstable person for most of my life.
15. i'm too aware of my own unhealthiness and instability.
16. i'm working on it though.
17. for love.
18. he makes me want to be a better person.
19. it scares me.
20. without him, i'm that unhealthy, unstable person i don't really care for.
21. i've been diagnosed with several mental disorders.
22. some of them aren't true.
23. i think all of the diagnoses are the reason i chose psych as my major.
24. college has been a waste of my time.
25. i wish i'd have figured that out long before i did.
26. if i weren't so close to finishing, i'd drop out.
27. i wanted to be a psychiatrist.
28. but then i didn't do so well in chemistry.
29. so i said, "fuck med school".
30. i was considering being a psych NP.
31. but i have no motivation to go through another 4 years of school.
32. my friends tell me i should be a relationship counselor or sex therapist.
33. i don't wanna go to school for it though.
34. i'd tell them all the same thing: men: stop being fucking cowards and be honest about what do and don't want from the relationship, including sex. women: stop being bitches, expecting men to know what the fuck you want. hell, some men can't even spell 'clitoris'. they sure as hell don't know where it is. COMMUNICATION! COMMUNICATION! COMMUNICATION!
35. i like hoody weather.
36. i like loud music.
37. i like wearing hoodies while listening to loud music.
38. i like to dance.
39. i like to sing.
40. i like to sing while dancing.
41. i'm a much better dancer than singer.
42. currently: snap music.
43. i think most people are full of shit.
44. i dislike most people.
45. most people dislike me.
46. i don't really care though.
47. as my little brother says, "they hate me cause they ain't me"
48. i love that kid.
49. he scares old white ladies.
50. i have a headache.
51. i don't know if it's due to sleep deprivation or lack of food.
52. i was doing pretty well with the food thing
54. until i bought the scale.
55. the scale is evil.
56. but i can't get rid of it.
57. not yet.
58. i wish i could see what other people see [physically] when they look at me.
59. i just don't.
60. i think that's okay though.
61. it's one of the things i'm working on.
62. me.
63. it's a work in progress.

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