i'm pretty sure one day i'll have it all together.
some day soon.
it's human nature.
to change.
some changes are depressing.
going from one extreme to the other.
it makes me unsure of things.
not really "things".
just me.
sometimes, i just don't know.

i like where we are right now.
moving.
not too fast.
not too slow.
at the right pace for us.

it's hard sometimes.
love, that is.
having to accept
and deal
with all the flaws and faults that comes with the person you love
and are in love with.
more so with me, than him.
it's an ongoing struggle.
being the one with all the issues
and having to be one being taken care of
when all i want is to take care of him.
but i know with him it's gonna be okay.

sometimes i forget how great i really have it.
the figurative "it".
i have everything i could possibly want.
and the things i don't have
i know i could get them.
i wish i could appreciate that more.

my mind is worn out.
from trying to adjust.
to everything.
movement.
stillness.
love.
severed ties.
me.
life.

i couldn't hold a constant mood if my life depended on it.
being so up and down.
it's exhausting.
there is one constant thing within it all.
from self-love to self-hate,
the passion is always there.

hate is so outrageous.
it has no heart.
soul.
it's the easy way out.

love is ambitious.
it has a mind.
feelings.
conviction.
it is demanding.

this is mine
you can't take it
i've got love

*****

to my bestest:
i'm sorry the first post you have to read is semi-depressing.

NIPPLE!

see, all better.

luff yoooos!

*

to my oh-so-wonderful sister:
i'm telling mommy.

kisses!

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