mad crazy week.
i'm so glad it's over.

our sleep schedule is totally screwed up now.
sleep all day, stay up all night.
we got ridiculously drunk last night.
it was like 3am and we were outside dancing and dry humping each other.
i think someone may have called the rent-a-pigs cause i've never seen them patrolling before last night/this morning.

what's new.....
oh, yeah...we're not engaged anymore.
when J and i had our little makeup talk wednesday night, i told him the only way i would take him back was if we called off the engagement.
he insisted that he's 100% committed to me and our relationship and that i was being unfair and unreasonable by making that decision for him instead of with him, but i don't really believe it.
i don't doubt he believes it, i just don't....or maybe i won't let myself believe him.
so yeah, until he can prove to me that he's ready for that kind of commitment, i'm just his girlfriend.
that really makes me sad- being just the girlfriend.
i feel like that label lessens my importance in his life.
it's like taking a thousand steps back and half a step forward.
like everything else, we'll just have to wait and see what happens.

some of our friends from home are coming up tonight and staying for the weekend festivities.
gotta love college football...even if our school does suck.
fuck. i've gotta feed those dickfaces for three days.
i kinda like 'em so it won't be that bad.
plus, it's always fun to hear about the people we went to high school with that totally suck at life now.
it makes my innards tingle with pleasure.

have a great weekend, y'all.
i plan to.
hopefully no one will get arrested.

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