yeah.
i've just spent the entire day writing stupid papers.
i didn't have too much trouble getting through the first two, but the last one was a bitch.
it's like my brain went into a coma.
i bs'ed my through it though.
go me.
quantity over quality should get me at least a C.
that shit totally ruined my day.
i've had to force myself to not take breaks for time with baby girl and J.
it was really hard because i'm so in love with this baby [and J too], especially since she's become quite the little wiggle worm over the past two days.
all i wanted do was sit/lay in bed and feel her moving around and listen to her little heartbeat.
it's so much more exciting and fulfilling than writing boring ass papers on shit i have very little interest in.

J's face has pretty much become a permanent fixture to my continuously expanding belly.
on the one hand, it makes my innards all warm and fuzzy to know how much he loves baby girl and wants to be there for every little move she makes.
on the other hand, it's like 'GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME! DO NOT TOUCH ME! DO NOT LOOK AT ME! DON'T EVEN BREATHE IN THE SAME ROOM AS ME!'
but i loverz him.
i've got this rash on my stomach because he's always rubbing his face with that stubble nastiness on me.
maybe if he'd shave, i wouldn't smack and cuss at him as much.
he's lucky he's hot.
my mom told me baby girl is gonna look exactly like him because i'm so mean and hateful towards him now, but she underestimates how truly fucking annoying J is.
and she likes him more than she likes me so i'm really not surprised she'd say some shit like that.

i'm horny.
i'm always horny.
i've noticed since i've become a bit more rotund that i cum a lot faster and harder than before.
that's definitely a plus [time a million trillion].
i'm slightly demented so i think baby girl is in there peeking through my cervix and sees daddy's peen coming at her full force every time we have sex.
hell, i don't even swallow when i give the man blowjobs now.
he HATES it and has tried to bribe me to swallow, but i can't do it.
i won't do it.
it just seems so incestuous.
eww.

why is it so difficult to find a middle name that meshes well with the first and last name?
i'm almost at the point to where i don't even want her to have a middle name because none of the ones i like sound right with her first name; but not so much her last name because it's so generic.
if she were to have my last name, i'd probably have an aneurysm by now.
and this was supposed to be the fun part.

some taco bell and a strawberry shake from dq sounds really good right now.

Labels: baby business, my love

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