long day.
i'm tired and my back hurts.
but i really wanted a piece of cake so i might as well blog a little while i'm up.

J and i went home today.
it was kinda weird cause we usually go back in forth in between our folks' houses and hang out together.
today, it was me with my folks and he with his.
i enjoyed seeing my folks though.
i was a little pissed when i got there cause the damn cake wasn't ready.
that heifer hadn't even started mixing the batter.
but i did get it eventually.
and it's yummy.
be jealous.

i just got a random kick so i'm assuming baby girl is either saying 'hi' or wants more german chocolatey goodness.
maybe both.

the people like rubbing the buddha belly.
she showed her little ass today.
i was kinda worried at first because she's never been as active as she was today, so i thought maybe something was wrong.
but no, she's an attention whore like her mommy.

my niece is having some adjustment issues.
she does not want me to be pregnant.
it's really not me being pregnant that's an issue.
it's the fact that i'm having a girl that she hates.
hopefully, she'll get over it.

J, my poor baby, got his feelings hurt by his extended family members.
for some reason, he had it in his mind that his folks would get over their issues with him being with me and us having a baby.
i suppose he's just more optimistic than i am, but i know that shit is not happening in this lifetime.
but anyhoos, none of his visiting family members had anything nice to say to him and it really upset him.
and apparently because of that, he had a breakthrough of some sort.
when he came back to my mom's house, i was sleeping my ass off and he crawled into bed with me and woke me up.
i was gonna slap the shit out of him but he started apologizing and talking about if he'd really knew how horrible his family was he'd have never wanted me to be around them and he was sorry and dada dada da.

i have mixed feelings about his whole little epiphany or whatever you wanna call it.
i'm glad he finally sees what i've been talking about for years now and especially the more recent issues.
i'm pissed at those assholes for upsetting him and i really just wanna kick all of their asses.
i'm pissed and annoyed with him because the only reason he "gets it" now is because all of that hostility and animosity i've received from those people all of these years was finally directed at him.
that's not to say he's never defended me against them, but i don't think he took it as seriously as he does now because none of the rude looks and comments and disrespect was ever to him, it always to me.
i guess i'm partially responsible for him not really taking it seriously because i never made a big deal about it until baby girl was in the picture and his dad turned out to be a bigot.
but....i don't know.
i could be overanalyzing it, but it's still kinda upsetting just because those people have no legitimate reason to hate me and my daughter is gonna suffer because of it as well.

anyhoos, i plan on spending most tomorrow in bed and planning out thanksgiving stuff.
J says he's taking me somewhere [he won't tell me where] this weekend, so i probably won't be updating that much, if at all.
so, to all my lovelies, have a wonderful thanksgiving.
see ya when i see ya.

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