howdy kids.
i can't sleep.
i was gonna make J wake up and talk to me but i'm really annoyed with him for some reason.
i don't know why. i was just laying in bed watching him sleep and thought to myself, 'ugh, he gets on my damn nerves'.
i think it's cause i'm jealous he can fall asleep at the drop of a hat and i can't.
and all this baby business i'm working with makes it even more difficult.

he says i complain about him too much on this thing so i have to brag on him a little:
today, he made me breakfast, gave me a full body massage, some hurts-so-good sex; and he took me out for a nice dinner and a movie tonight.

fyi: "black christmas" = worst. movie. ever.
some of the most terrible acting since i don't know when.
and i don't know about you but i'd prefer not seeing old lady-titties.
EVER.
then there was some bitch a couple rows in front of us who screamed every 5 seconds and scared my baby.
i mean, it was so obvious when someone was about to get killed so i don't know what the fuck her deal was.

my favoritest fag is flying in tomorrow/later today.
we've talked almost every day since he moved to L.A. but i'm so excited to see him.
a few nights ago, he drunk dialed me and told me the reason he loves me is because the first time we met, i told him i was a man and we'd make precious babies together in the same sentence.
and him remembering random shit like that is the reason i love him.
does that mean i need more friends?

i'm gonna have to go back home sooner than i planned or wanted to.
my mom and J's mom want to give me a baby shower.
there's really nothing wrong with that, except those dumb whores want to have it in january and i'm not due until the end of fucking march.
why not wait until the end of february or early march?
oh snap!
i forgot my friend A is giving me one, too.
i hope baby girl is as antisocial as i am. the fewer kids and parents i have to deal with when she's older, the better.
but i do get free stuff so i probably shouldn't be complaining.

she has the hiccups right now.
it feels really weird.
i love feeling and listening to all of her little movements though.
i can't wait to meet her.
my due date can't get here fast enough.
she's gonna be so loved and spoiled it's ridiculous.

i need to go to bed.
nighty night, kids.

Labels: baby business, my love, so random

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