i am so fucking hungry.
and i shouldn't be.
i got up at 6 and made myself french toast, scrambled eggs, along with some stawberries, blueberries, whipped cream, and chocolate sauce.
i didn't keep much of that down so around 8 i was sitting on the floor in our bedroom eating everything in the mini-fridge.
i just made J get his drunk ass out of bed to go to mcdonald's and get me a mcgriddle and some hash browns and a mcflurry.
this is why i'm so fucking huge now.
i'm a pig.
it's not baby fat.
just fat.

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i should be studying for finals right now but i don't really feel like it.
i have this weekend plus monday to do it.
ooh, i have a checkup on wednesday.
hopefully, i'll get through it without having to choke a bitch.

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someone asked me if i thought letting J cum on my tits, stomach, or back was degrading.
i don't think so. in fact, i encourage it.
that means i don't have to get out of bed to go pee when we're done.
a coupla baby wipes will take care of that little mess.
as long as he doesn't fuck with my hair, we won't have any problems.
how 'bout y'all?
degrading or no?

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J and i have been discussing possible birthing methods.
there's the hospital, a midwife, and water birth at home.
he's leaning towards the water birth at home thing because it's supposedly less traumatic for the baby.
but i'd rather be in a hospital because there are so many things that could go wrong, which is one of my biggest fears......and they have the drugs.
i will get over my fear of needles. i have to have drugs if i'm gonna push this baby out of my giney.
i've seen enough live births and episodes of "a baby story" to know there's no way in hell i'm having my baby without some serious drugs.
i even have a list of things that are and are not allowed when i go into labor.

allowed:
drugs
J
the camcorder
doctors
the soon-to-be grandmas [maybe]

not allowed:
unnecessary talking
J passing out
looking at the giney [unless you're a doctor]
camera shots of the giney
"ewwwwwww"
my hair looking a mess
the soon-to-be grandpas
bitch ass nurses


there's some other stuff but that's off the top of my head.

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oooh, food's here!

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