welcome, welcome back kids.

i haven't really been in a blogging mood lately.
almost writer's block, but not quite.
i've had plenty to rant and rave about, i've just not had the desire to write it. probably because i've taking all my frustrations out on Jay.
he's getting a little break though because he went to one of the milliondollarbaby stores in town, said some really nasty things to people, and ordered the nursery furniture i wanted. so, everything will be here in about 2 weeks! YAAAAAAYYYYY!!! that's perfect timing as Jay has midterms next week and his spring break is the following week. i told zoe not to make a surprise appearance before her daddy finishes his midterms and the nursery is finished, but she doesn't really listen to me. we'll see what happens.

at my checkup wednesday, i had a test for group B strep done and zoe's biophysical profile thingy. she did really well. i think she deserved a 10/10 but the nuDoc only gave her a 9 because "no baby ever scores a perfect 10". i wanted to kick him in the nuts when he said that. my baby is a perfect 10.
she didn't have quite the same little growth spurt as last week, but it looks like she's steadily growing.
i almost pissed on the exam table thanks to all that extra fucking pressure on my bladder during baby girl's test. needless to say after 45 minutes of that and the comment about no baby scoring a perfect 10, i was not particularly pleased with nuDoc. douchebag.

baby girl has proven to be very stubborn like her mama. she has pretty much refused to turn. she's still booty-first so at next week's checkup i have to have an ECV to hopefully get her head-first. i'm DEFINITELY not looking forward to that. i'm scared something is going to go horribly awry and she'll be hurt and there won't be anything i can do about it.

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since the weather is so pretty and spring-like today, Jay and i [along with that stupid dog] had a little picnic at the park. we stopped at the deli/bakery and got some sammiches and the best chocolate filled croissants EVAH.
later, while Jay was off playing frisbee with the dog, the cutest little brown-haired girl came over to me with grape popsicle juice running down the sides of her mouth, staing her pretty little strawberry shortcake dress. she couldn't have been more than 4 or 5 and she goes "are you having a baby?"
and i was like "yes, i'm having a little girl soon."
she goes, "my mommy's having a baby too. it's a boy. i'm gonna be a big brother." i thought that was the cutest thing i'd ever heard and i just started bawling. uncontrollably crying. the little girl was all weirded out so she was like "i'm gonna go play with my daddy now" as she slowly backed away.
i guess Jay saw the whole thing so he comes back over and he's like "what's wrong?" i tried to explain to him what the little girl said and that it was just the hormones but i was still crying. and crying and talking simultaneously never quite works out, so i just yelled "TAKE ME HOME! I HAVE TO PEE!"
for some reason, i always have to pee when i'm crying.
besides that whole crying fit, i enjoyed being away from the house a couple of hours, not obsessing over baby business.

but now i'm home so......

i've been having false labor contractions more often. that's some unpleasant shit. i was actually considering not having drugs during delivery because i thought i had high pain tolerance. FUUUUUUUCK that shit. there's no way in hell this baby's coming without me getting every drug possible. i will even temporarily forget i have an irrational fear of needles. i must have drugs.

has anyone been watching american idol? i haven't. there's nothing appealing about it to me anymore. however, i do find it interesting that one of the girls has some somewhat scandalous photos popping up across al gore's internets, yet the producers have done or said nothing about it.

remember Frenchie?

Labels: baby business, my love, so random, this is who i am

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