howdy y'all. i know i've been kinda M.I.A. and i can't say it won't happen again, but i'm posting now so be happy.

i just don't get the satisfaction from blogging as i once did. prior to losing my baby, i could blog about anything- the highest highs, the lowest lows- and benefit from it in some way. it was cathartic for me at one time. now, i could fill this screen with all my current thoughts and feelings and i wouldn't feel any different from when i first started typing.

today, has been very bittersweet. today is Jay's and my anniversary. we've been back together exactly 2 years now. it's also been exactly 1 month since we had and lost our baby girl.
and just 2 months ago we were excited about getting to share this day and other anniversaries with her.
while i'm more than thankful to have Jay in my life, and hope to share many more years of craziness with him [I LIKE YOUR FACE! ;-)], i find it very difficult to enjoy this day.

[pretend there's something funny here.]

p.s. they don't make night-therapists.

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