how's it goin, kids?

the weather here is all nasty. rain, rain, and more rain. of course that means i'm staying inside all weekend. not that i really have a choice. Jay got all 4 of his wisdom teeth taken out thursday, so he's being a big baby. i felt really bad for him the first 2 days because he was in so much pain and i couldn't do anything to make him feel better; but that motherfucker has one more time to push me out of the bed for "talking too much" and i'm gonna stick my pinky finger in those little sockets and stab him in the nuts.

i think i'm gonna cut back on the workout schedule. the past 2 weeks i've worked out everyday for at least 3 hours and i've actually enjoyed it because i can see the progress i've made up until this point, but my back isn't loving it as much. the past few morning i've woken up damn near paralyzed because of the pain. i was thinking about starting the cortisone shots again but i don't know if it's really worth it. i mean, the 6 shots i was getting were supposed to last for at least a month, but it wore off in 2 weeks. plus, i'm not a fan of needles. there's always surgery but there's no way in hell opting for that. so, yeah, i think it would probably be best to just cut the workout out time in half and do it every other day instead.

ooh! my mentor from v@ndy emailed me the other day about being a paid research assistant for the next school year. my last 2 years there, i was the only undergraduate who got to work with her. i didn't get paid but it didn't matter. i love doing research [and i'm great at it!!] and i learned so much from her and that whole experience, so she was very disappointed when i called her and told her i wouldn't be able to do it. i was honored this famous researcher thought of little ol' me to be a part of her team, but in order to do that i'd have to be enrolled as a graduate student. i'm just not ready to jump back into that world again. i mean, i plan to go back for the doc program, but that's a commitment i'm not ready to make at this point in my life. i'm not ready to go back to sitting in somebody's class, writing papers, and taking exams for another 4 years. i told my mom that and she retorted "you were ready to be a mom, which is a life-long commitment, but not grad school which is what? 3 or 4, 5 years at most? i don't have time for this." and then she hung up.

parents just don't understand.


p.s. i'm not ignoring your comments. haloscan hates me.

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