-i had a job interview today. i'd actually kinda forgotten about it until i got the call for the interview. i think it went well. we'll see.

-my mom called me an asshole today as well. even if it's true, you never expect your mom to say that kinda shit to you. she can't be mad at me because i don't like the person she's dating.

-this morning, i thought about choking the life out of Jay because he wouldn't go get me a smoothie. i threw a fit instead. it worked. :)

-FINALLY, talked to my gay boy. he's been sick. summer colds always suck. they're so fucking hard to get rid of. and if the common cold is so common, why isn't there a cure? i've never understood that.

-my niece made me feel really bad for not coming home for the 4th to see her. now, my brother and i have to make plans for her to come spend a weekend with me and Jay. i'm gonna have to do some serious toy shopping for that kid. oh, she doesn't like dora or strawberry shortcake anymore. that's baby stuff and she's too big for that. it's all about tinkerbell now.
the fuck?

-i think i'm starting to regret buying Jay that guitar. he's teaching himself to play, he's learned a GnR riffs, he's made up some really awesome riffs-- all great stuff. but i want it to stop. MAKE IT STOP!

-i've been craving cornbread. i don't even like cornbread that much enough to have cravings for it, but i made some anyway. it was pretty damn good. i ate like half the skillet.

-eating half a skillet of cornbread made me feel fatter and nastier than i've already been feeling. for the most part, i've been eating pretty healthy; but not going to the gym makes me feel disgusting. Jay tried to make me feel better about it but he failed miserably. i know he means well, but telling me i need to put on a few pounds because i "look better with some meat on [my] bones" and because he misses the "jiggle in [my] wiggle" is insulting. i know i have body issues, but dammit, they're not going anywhere. don't ever use the word "jiggle" when you're talking about my body. i'll cut you.

-i got my period for the first time in almost a year. i'm not enjoying it at all. i'm bleeding from my giney and i have to start the pill again. ugh. it does explain why i've been super bitchy the past few days.

-i've been flirting with the idea of cutting my hair short. i don't think i could ever do it though. i'm too attached to it. 4 inches is the most i've ever cut off but that's when it was really long and even then i cried.

i'm such a fucked up person.

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