i spent 3 hours at the doctor's today. not because of the wait, but because i kept having freaking out and having panic attacks. i hate/am afraid of needles that much.

i'm getting better with food. very few thoughts of binging/purging/mia. that makes me feel good. but i think my bc pills are starting to make me gain weight. i'm probably gonna get them changed. lower dose?
must. go. to. gym.

i'm so anxious for fall to get here. it's my favorite season. the weather. the leaves changing colors. HALLOWEEN!

Jay starts his new job soon. he's really happy about it. he'll have to work in an office for a couple of weeks while training but after he's on the grind, he'll have more flexible hours and get to work from home. i don't think it'll be too difficult to adjust since i got a little heads up this time. thank you. and i'm happy if he's happy. i'm gonna miss all of our snuggle time though. and i hate corporate dinners. you have no idea.

ew. i have a line of bruises down my lower back at the injection sites. so disgusting.

Jay's making dinner tonight. the fire extinguisher will be on standby. :)

i bought the most amazingly delicious blackberries from the produce market. i love that place. i've yet to get a bad batch of fruit or veggies.

Jay's cut off all his hair again. i wanna cut my hair ridiculously short [pixie hair?] but i'm too attached to it. maybe i'll dye it. it's time for a new color.

i'm really happy i got to spend some time with my niece. it was quite exhausting, but absolutely worth it. i'm in a good place right now.
i kinda like it.



they're gorgeous.

and i'm afraid of how much i love you......

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