howdy, kids. how you doin?

i'm good. i've been in the bestest mood the past couple of days. i think the fact that i've actually been to sleep at a decent time, thanks to my friend ambien, has a lot to do with it. along with some retail, music, and sex therapy. and the best of episode of big brother in history-- princess dustin's smug ass got evicted. i haven't been so excited since the cards won the world series. it was so orgasmic, the look on his face when Chenbot said "By a vote of 4 to 2,Dustin, you are evicted from the Big Brother house." *squeal* i've replayed that scene sooooooo many times on my dvr and it never gets old. TEAM DONATO!

i'm really happy that Jay is loving his job. he's actually not working the position he initially applied for, but he says this job is better. he doesn't want me to talk about it [his job] here, so i won't. but i will say the only thing i'm worried about is him becoming a slave to deadlines and being jaded by it all. i don't want him to ever work where he's consumed with just that; i would hate for him to be miserable with his job. *sigh* so far, he's managing well. when he comes home, he makes sure that i know i'm his only focus, but as always, we'll see what happens.

he told me he had a surprise for me when he gets home, and i've been going out of my mind trying to figure out what it could be. i have no idea, which totally sucks cause i'm a nosy bitch. i need to know these things!

i have an interview next week for the job at v@ndy. i'm very excited about that. i'm not getting my hopes extremely high though. i'm sure there are plenty of candidates more qualified than i am. and i'm not sure whether or not the rule 'don't hire your own' applies. i'm keeping my fingers crossed.

i've also been trying to figure out what i should do with the nursery. i don't know if i want to move everything out and strip all the paint and decorations. Jay worked so hard putting everything together and making sure it was perfect when we brought our little girl home. we shot almost every pregnancy video in that room. so many good memories in there. i want to keep it as is because i know changing it back to the way it was before would just make it hurt that much more. i don't think i'm ready or want that closure. i don't know. i just don't know.

i'm gonna go straighten my hair.


**name that movie.

Labels: baby business, my love, so random, this is who i am

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