dude, i'm pooped.
literally and figuratively.

i had to have a serious talk with my littleface about pooping on mommy, this morning. the long stretch and yawn she gave me pretty much let me know that this would not be our last time having the no-pooping-on-mommy conversation.

today is gonna be the first day the little bug and i spend alone together. Jay's been gone since 7am tailgating with some of his buddies and probably won't be home until late tonight. i'm a little nervous because he's always there when Ava gets a little out of hand or i need a moment just to take a shower or get something to eat. luckily, my sister-in-law isn't far away and willl come by some time later today after she's done with classes. it's funny because when Ava was first born, Jess was so afraid to hold her. she was like 'oh my god, i'm gonna break her!' now, she just loves spending time with Ava and i can't keep her away. today, i'm gonna let her get all the Ava-time she wants because i have got to get some sleep.

last night, i got a little crazy trying to get all prepared for Jay being gone all day with cleaning, prepping food, and getting out everything i would need for Ava. then, i found that we had like 2 boxes of diapers and some clothes littleface could no longer wear so i packed all that up with a few other things for Jay to drop off at the women's shelter on his way out this morning. by the time i finished, it was 2am and Ava was up and ready to be nursed again. usually, if she wakes up late at night/early in the morning, she goes back to sleep almost immediately, but this time she was like, 'nope. i'm just gonna suck on my thumb and stare at you and keep you up with my cuteness for 2 more hours. i should've made Jay get his ass up so i could sleep, but she's just so stinkin cute and i just love those little moments with her. it was almost 5 when i finally got to lay my head down on the pillow and before i knew it, it was 6:30 and Jay was up making all kinds of damn noises. and being the selfish jerkoff he is, he woke up Ava so he could get a minute of playtime before he left. CURSES! so, of course, i had to nurse her and get bathtime out of the way while she was still in a good mood. we're making some serious progress with bathtime. instead of screaming bloody murder the entire time, she cried for only a couple of minutes. after putting her snuggly winnie the pooh jammies on, she was out again. that was around 8ish. i should be sleeping while she's asleep but Jay WON'T STOP CALLING ME every half hour. every time i put my head down, my phone goes to buzzing. who is it? him.

"the fuck do you want?"
"hey babe. i was just calling to see what you and Ava were doing."
"the same goddamn thing we were doing when you left."
"well, FUCK YOU!"
"i don't even LIKE YOU!"

we're so in love.

so, it's almost 11 and i'm sure my little bug will waking up soon.

Jess, where are you?

Labels: littleface, my love, so random, weekend stuff

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