it pretty much just fell.

-my mother has lupus which has been well-controlled, but now she has pneumonia. not good when you practically have no immune system to fight it off. 'hello, sepsis. how are you today?'

-my little brother has decided to acquire a heroin addiction. it explains so much of his recent behavior but all i can think is "how did this happen?" and "how did i not know?"

-my husband was given 2 days notice before he had to leave the country for 2 weeks to work at his job's international office. the day he left was the day i got the phone call from


so, i've had to make a temporary move back home with a teething almost-7 month old in tow.

i get to spend 1 hour three times a day with my mom, who's so drugged up, barely even knows i'm there.

in between visits, i'm begging and pleading with my 21 year old brother to get some fucking help; then he goes off on a bender and i don't see or hear from him for 2 days. when he does show his face,we do this dance all over again.

everytime i talk to my husband, we're either arguing about his job and why he's not here with me and our daughter or we just sit holding the phone because neither one of us has anything to say.

oh yeah, i have this cute, but constantly crying littleface teething in an environment she's not very unfamiliar with and doesn't know where her daddy is.

have i ever mentioned how much i hate hospitals? i still do, but this one has krispy kreme donuts and wi-fi.
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