busy busy busy bee i am. my great uncle died 2 weeks ago after a year-long battle with lung and brain cancer. while we were getting his affairs in order, we found out he didn't have life insurance because he was HIV+ and no one would insure him. while everyone else was arguing over money and who would pick up the funeral costs*, i was simply in awe of how this man lived with a terrible disease for nearly a decade and not a single one of us knew about it. i couldn't imagine living with something like that and never telling a soul.

my mom hasn't been doing so well either. i'm hoping it's just the stress of everything that's happened with my little brother [finally checked himself into rehab!!] and having to take care of our uncle the past month of his life that has taken its toll on her. maybe now that there's some relief in those areas she'll bounce back to her normal self.

getting everything together for lits' birthday has been quite a task. i'm pretty sure i've gone way overboard but it's her first birthday. i'm supposed to make a big deal out of this. invitations were sent out last week and everyone has RSVP'd, i've got all the decorations and party supplies, the cake and catering is all set. now, all i need is for someone dressed as hello kitty to come and entertain a few kids for a couple of hours and my job is done. it would be nice if it didn't rain the day of the party too but i won't hold my breath for that one.

Jay will be leaving us for 6 weeks to work in london. when he first told me about it, i was quite upset, but i could do all the bitching and whining in the world and he'd still have to go. so all i can do is be supportive and make the best of it. he'll be home for lits' birthday and her party but he'll miss my next checkup when we find out the baby's sex and he's gonna miss lits getting all dressed up for halloween and trick-or-treating. *sad face*

gawd, i wish it would stop raining.

*did you know the VA only pays all the funeral costs if a terminally ill vet dies in a hospital, otherwise they only pay for the burial? that's some straight up bullshit right there.
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